I Comment On Myself

I'm a really annoying friend, yes, I am..
I'm selfish, I admit it..
I'm a coward and a failure, I know I am..
I'm fragile and get jealous easily, I can feel it..

I'm mentally and emotionally unstable, I can't control myself..
I have bad temper, just so you know..
I'm a lazy ass, I never get things done on time..
I don't show my real emotions that much, I don't want people to worry..

I'm a baby, I cry easily but stay hidden..
I hate my life, money seems to be the first priority..
I need friends, my family don't understand me..
I like to pretend and ignore, it makes me feel better..

I think too much unnecessary stuff, I get moody..
I like to dream, I get crazy..
I'm blur, it's my nature..
I want to help, I don't know how..

I think I have psychological disorder, I'm not normal..
I want to die, I never got brave/stupid enough to do it..
I'm sinful, I was never a good girl..
I have issues with boys, maybe I'm born like this..

I'm indecisive, can't make up my mind..
I dislike children, they make me go mad..
I don't like studying, I'm forced to do so..
I hate losing, winning is better..

I have too many secrets, I can't tell anyone..
I have a sister, she's with my ex-stepdad..
I'm happy, that was when I'm a kid..
I'm grateful, I went for National Service..

I'm proud, maybe I'm not..
I like to drive, the faster the better..
I'm my mum's daughter, we don't talk much..
I love music, I hate singing..

Who am I? I'm simply me..