Most Expensive Karaoke Session

i cannot tahan ady!!!!
i need to write!!!!
1 ROUND sing k at NEWAY TAMAN SEGAR cost me RM70++++!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate sing k now....
i hate i hate i hate!!!
why so expensive??

all also my own stupidity...i'm such a moron...
took RM60 out...
then halfway through karaoke session, realize lost all my money.... T.T

RM70 = RM60 was how much i brought out today + RM10++ was the k-session fees....
haih.....
what an unlucky day for me.....

what to do??
go find everywhere i've been to....
result is don't have....

i really wanted to cry....
really really want to cry.....
but i need to hold it in....

at the end, i still can't manage to cry it out....
what else i can do??
keep the tears inside.....

i just want to say....
JIA, JIE, TENG, WENHUI....
you all are not guilty....don't need to blame yourself....

and lastly, i just want to wish whoever that pick up my money...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA~~~
this would probably be your biggest DUIT RAYA of the year....congrates~~~

My Very First Chinese Post

气死我了！！！
我真笨！！！
很讨厌现在的我。。。。

钱都可以不见。。。。
以后就不要把脑带出去了。。。
浪费位子。。。

害到我心情变得更差。。。
臭鸡蛋的我。。。
很没用啊！！！

掉了我带出街的ＲＭ６０。。。
再加上唱Ｋ一人ＲＭ１０＋＋。。。。
对我来说是去唱一场就不见了ＲＭ７０。。。

RM70。。
永远记得这一场“K-歌”用了我那么多钱。。。
现在哭也没得救了。。。

只能祝那位那么幸运的人，
ＳＥＬＡＭＡＴ　ＨＡＲＩ　ＲＡＹＡ！！！
也许那些钱是他今年最大份的青包吧。。。

虽然不懂那个人是谁。。。
还是要恭喜他。。。
因为我已经没心情要诅咒你了。。。

算你好运，我倒霉。。。
这件事我没告诉妈妈。。。
就因为她不知道，所以又向我借钱了！！！　

这两个星期真的要吃空气了啦。。。。
完蛋了。。。
财神爷，救救我！！！

Finally It Came

any1 getting tired of blogging??
well i am...
feel so sien...
no mood 1 update so often ady....

actuali really ntg much to say about life now...
same things happen evyday...
same routines....
same habits....

even if you're not tired of it, im getting bored liao....
so....dun nid to waste ur energy cum pass by my blog ba...
haha...i knew dis day wud come...
n since now it has came, im gonna say , '' THANKS FOR SUPPORTING YO!!! ''

-peace out-

Yours Truly,
--{ elyn }--
(OWNER OF THIS BLOG)

<< secrets within >>

how could they do this to you?
they really upset you...
and made me get worried about you...
who are they to treat you like this?
DAMN IT!
they are still the same human kind as you are....
just that they left their morale somewhere in the dumpsters...
wish you well...
you can get through this....
miss you like hell since holiday started...
don't know how are you doing...
so hard to even not see you for a day...
a part of me really wants to see you again...
the remaining parts only wants to stay away from this world...
getting confused of what i'm feeling now...
this shouldn't happen to me...
even if i wanted it so badly, you wouldn't have needed it...
you don't need the infections...
you don't need to be polluted...
it's very clear to me that it's not going to come true...
it will always be in my imaginary world...
it shall not cross the boundary between my delusions and reality...
you don't need to know my feelings....
just realize i exist would be sufficient for me....
i will always be by your side...
supporting you...
helping you...
lend you my shoulders...
comfort you...
trust you...
see you smile back to me...
i don't need nothing else...
the memories of you and me will always stay fresh in my mind...
whatever makes you happy, go for it!
you can do it!

** P/S : Same old style. Don't bother who I'm talking about. Think as much as you want. I'm not telling you who is it and I'm not revealing who is it. **

Digital Mall

oh well....
2day went out gaigai...
1st outing since RAYA holiday start....

our destination : DIGITAL MALL & MIDVALLEY.... ^^
objective : Wai Yen First Laptop>> DELL Studio 14 ** still blur....dunno wats dat..haha **
kinda tired now...so i'll jz write d schedule...


9.30am - escort my SUGAR, ADRIAN to WAI YEN house....and its a surprise visit...LOL

10.00am - reached WAI YEN hse...she scream like saw a superstar when Adrian's arrival knock her out of her body... =D

10.15am - journey to DIGITAL MALL begins~~ according to d map my mum drew for me, we kinda lost for 20mins....but stil managed to find d mall after several U-Turns... XD

10.45am - apparently, d mall nt yet open...so went breakfast/morning tea at Secret Recipe...

** LEMON CHEESE CAKE, CHOCOLATE CHEESE CAKE, WHITE CHOCOLATE ???? **

11.15am - DIGITAL MALL cruising starts~~~ find Wai Yen laptop...

1.30pm - MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!! shun bin go MidValley...haha...we walk walk oni at d very top floor....went into shops....den play around....hoho...den Adrian bought his BIGBANG album..congrates~~~

2.10pm - lunch at CARL'S JR...ate hotdog bread..hahaha...cost us RM 2468.80!!!!! prepare to wash dishes liao T.T......jking la...d machine sot ady i guess....oni cost us round RM30+...

3pm - go ARCADE!! =P...fun fun~~~

4pm - outing of the day ended officially....

i think dats all....duno 1 2 write wat ady....
miss all my frens...
hate to think of skul...
when can we meet??

oh my darling!!!
oh my jie!!!
oh my dear 姐妹!!!

hang out hang out!!!! ^^

My Baby Turns 18

宝贝！！！
生日快乐！！！！
记得要玩得开心！！！！！

Treasure Found

congrates!!!
finally~~~
d treasure we were hunting came liao...hahahaha
for d merdeka month, scout had made a few activites...

my group, DELTA/GROUP 4 (PROUD ^^) won 2 prizes!!! =P
v gt 3rd place for d Pertandingan ??????....i forgot wat name for it...
but dat competition v nid reuse things to build sumthing related to MALAYSIA.....
haha....my group built a rumah panjang....

really unexpectedly won it....hahaha
d prize is clear folders....erm...looks dusty liao de... =.='''
den v came in 1st in d Treasure Hunt.... =D
so happy~~~

v gt a hamper for it....
even d hamper oso looks dusty... =X
anyway, my group ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our Treasure!!! $.$

haha....holiday reached liao....
yday oni noe 2day gov giv us 1 more special day holiday..... ^^
yay~~~
can sleep more...xixi

but i really did slep more...
slept at 6pm yday...
den wake up dat time...
ady 8am 2day....hahahahha

recharged gao gao liao...
den erm....
RAYA gonna reach...
so>>> SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

ok..so u might nt b celebrating RAYA..
n i dun1 giv up pork either...
bt v are 1MALAYSIA~~~ haha
(semangat patriotik kononnya la...hahahahaha)

jz wish for fun la....
cuz v gt holiday bcuz of raya...
so muz promote har lo... =D
so erm...

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Skipping Meeting

today no koko...yay~~~
so happy.... can end skul early...hahahaha
atuali gt meeting for Majlis PPU...
sumthing like electing a representative for F6.... =.='''

n dats y all of us skip dat meeting...
no1 interested in playing dat role.... XD
n dats oso y v went for McD/KFC at JJ Maluri.... kekeke
we are >> ME, JIA, JIE, TENG, BABY, YUEN YEE, LAI YEN, WEN HUI....

we went thr den Jie & Teng 1 eat KFC...
ori plan is eat McD...
den saw Wai Yen & Hon Sim at McD eating oso.... ( don't want be lamp post & don't want give them so many lamp posts >_< )
dats y v take away at McD & go eat at KFC...hahahaha

its awkward but v stil did it...^^
out of 8ppl....oni 2 are eating KFC at KFC...
6 eating McD at KFC...hahahahha
after we almost finix...
came Yen Chin & Kiri.....

dat time oni noe Lai Yen bought Yen Chin's meal at McD too...LOL
but they very rush....
very fast dey say 1 go bak skul...haha
but v stil continue eat & chat...

after dat, almost 2 or 3pm,
Boey, Yuen Yee, Lai Yen, Wen Hui all bak 2 skul again....
left me, Jia, Jie, Teng...
4 of us continue chat chat chat...

after a while....
Wai Yen & Hon Sim came by n say HI.... =D
den v stil continue sit n talk... o.O
almost 4pm....v go lu~~~

gao dim safely fetch they all bak home...
i go xxxxxxxxxxx to buy present for my 宝贝.... ^^
dat thing cost RMxxxxxxxxxx...... hehe
dun1 reveal too much....so put many x's....

her bday cuming liao....dis Saturday (19 Sept).... =P
i always feel excited over frens' bday...
dunno wat disease lai de...sot sot liao~~~ @.@
mayb i think bday is very very important anniversary... kekeke

Done With PA Videos

downloaded all d videos for PA colloquium....
so happy...
but dat cost me my rest n sleep...haih

den 2day went skul as usual, same time....
sudenli WAI YEN cal me....
very very urgent ask me go fetch her cuz her hse thr rain heavily....
so i oso go lor.... ^^

den when 1 bak 2 skul dat time...
raining ady~~~
almost gt us into accident wey~~~~
i press d brake pedal really hard!!!

den can feel d whole car de force trying its best to STOP....
really lucky dat my car stop right b4 d front MYVI....
phew~~~ i really scared i bump into d front car...
den mana tau....nothing happen....
no boom...no bang....no scratch....no nothing....

dats a veli veli veli veli good sign...
means i din hit d front car...damn lucky!!!
Wai Yen!!! u really my lucky charm 2day..... =D
but sorry cuz frighten u, and me too...... >_<

reach skul ady late....
but i dun mind as im used to getting late...hahahaa
so v went into d skul round 8am....
my baby came to groundfloor n fetch me up...^^

tqtq baby~~~
den Wai Yen go 2 her lab do experiment....haha
all oso tel me same thing, '' OH!!! You're late!!!! ''
zadao~~~ den i explain.....again n again to evy1 dat tel me same thing....

i answer same thing again n again too...
say i no late lor!!!! i 6.30am ady reach skul de ar!!!
but den sudenli Wai Yen nid my help, so i go n fetch her....
den i bak 2 skul AGAIN at 8.30am....hahaha

finally 2day gt kuliah...yay~~~
can chat wit Jia, Jie & Teng...hehe
so happy...
can keep me awake when in clas... XD

i haven been sleeping well for nearly 24hours.....
evening bak home....
ate ady den sudenli mum cal, say wanna go walk walk at Cheras Selatan.....
arrrgghhhh~~~~ i 1 sleep ar!!!

but stil go wit her oso.....
den teman her eat her dinner at thr...
i oni ordered a dessert cuz i nt hungry....
den....go walk walk....

wah~~~ really nid sleep so badly....
she saw me look so exhausted n no mood n walk oso no energy liao....
so faster go buy her things den bak home....
i jz came bak home...

now wanna say....
GOOD NIGHT evybody~~~~

*** NO COLOURFUL BECAUSE I REALLY SLEEPY NOW.... SORRY OH ***

Tiring Days

sunday~~~~
woke up n faster go download d videos for PA colloquium....
haha....ady postpone my job many hours liao....
postpone sumore den wil b un-finish..... =P

haih....
tot wanna use whole day download....
den sudenli mum came in n ask, ''Want follow me go to work ma? Maybe later will go watch movie''........
den im like wah~~~~~ so happy...... ^^

very very very very very hard 2 get d chance 2 go out wit her.....
so i pek dai/leave my work....
quickly get changed....
den folow her out.... XD

1st v go eat brunch....
at Pudu....
den go her office......
sumwhr whrby i duno whr lai de...hehehe

den leh....
v stay thr til 4pm or so...
after dat v go gai gai at Sungai Wang....
she say wanna buy bracelet for leg (脚链)...

so go a jewelery store buy...
she chose 1 for me, 1 for her...
atuali i dun really 1 2 wear it...
cuz....................... *_*

after bought, go Leisure Mall watch movie....
怪談 (The Unbelievable)...........
bought tix for 3, 9.15pm show....
den wait mum fren reach, go eat dinner...

dinner at dos shops near Leisure Mall....
went into a shop name e食无忧 ....
nt bad nt bad....
we ordered sum dishes den 3 rice....hahaha

den gt 1 pair couple.....
sit next table...
in their mid 30's i guess....
stil 1 dating like teenagers/old times dating...

i saw they ordered oni 1 dish.... *share share*
den saw dat gal put d handkerchief around her neck... o.O
its like when baby eating, u put hanky around their neck...hahahhahaha
n dats nt d most swt part...

dey sumore 1 use their hp..
a Sony Ericsson hp....
open loud loud d music... -.-''
den act like no1 thr will feel annoyed....

v sit next table feel so beh tahan ady....
den so ngam dat time d table on our other next side empty liao....
so v faster shift thr....
c them oso eyesore....so i dun1 look them anymore....hahahahahhahaa =.='''

after dinner, go popular hav a walk....
bought my PA reference book & Organic Chemistry..... *finally*
den go watch movie lu~~~~

erm...i cant really find any other pics on dat movie in net....
so jz found dis nia....
ok...main point is....
i dun think its a nice movie...

its atuali a series of ghost mysteries....
den they sumhow choose sum cases they did in Thailand...
den they made it into a movie....
its more like documentary film lo....zadao~~~

dun recommend u all watch...
cuz throughout movie, i very blur....
thr gt 1 Master/Sifu...
den observing d video n say he saw ''it''.....

so i tried 2 find it....
where where where where?????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n he keep saying thr gt light, thr gt light....
deng~~~~ i find so hard oso cant see....
find dao dat case end liao oso cant see..... =.='''

gt sum eerie stuff oso la....
but i watch dat time really no feel lo...
mayb i not in dat cinema...
mind n soul duno fly whr ady....hahaha

n i stil dun recommend u all watch...
feel so nt worth it....
quite sien oso....
go buy dvd enuf liao.... ^^

after movie, bak home, continue homework...
download video~~~~
hate dat software!!!
nid manually click den oni wil download....

haih....
tired ady lor....
went out whole day.....
but stil try tahan....
at least nid download a few more video 1st den oni sleep....

eyes getting dryer.... tired.....
2am liao~~~
ter-sleep when halfway downloading....
hahahaha....wake up ady 4am...

oh no!!!
gt many more nt yet download!!!
rush rush click.....
but stil nt enuf time cuz 6am liao...nid go skul dy.... T.T

bak home 2day...continue download....hahahahaha
2day no kuliah eh.....
so boring...whole day in class.....
knot chat wit Jia, Jie & Teng... haih.....

no kuliah cuz d Upper F6 using d Dewan Kuliah for their MUET test....
lol....den make us no kuliah....
den make my clas nid listen 2 more periods of Maths....
atuali gt 2 periods is jz a relief for MUET but she stil 1 teach when relief....deng~~~

whole day less saw Jia, Jie & Teng...
feel so boring....uncomfortable~~~
so nt fun.... =(
kuliah faster cum bak~~~ >_<

MSN Spaces

i had made a msn spaces!!!
kekeke.....
made for fun....
totally un-related 2 dis blog de...hehe...
feel free to visit oh~~~ ^^
juz clik my name in d list on ur rite la....

oh well...
2day....sien...
do ntng....
had dinner wit mum n her bf....

at TEPPANYAKI in Cheras Selatan....
wah~~~ very nt nice lo....
d food taste like put whole bottle of AJINOMOTO in it...
yuks.....so awful....

skul 1 start again....
wat a sad news.... =(
i think many ppl wil b bz wit d folio n colloquium....
so v all jia you lor!!! ^^

Sleeping Is The Best Meditation

din slep on wed nite....
jz nap on evening after dat scout activity...haih
so at nite do PA karangan at 1am like dat....
do do do do...

nid find sum info on d net 2 do dat PA....
do do do do do.....
wah~~~~ 5am liao!!!
time 2 prepare 2 skul lu.....

haha....very very sleepy....
head so light.....
whole day tired...
jz wanna rest a while oso cant....

nid listen in clas.... =X
really hope dat day d time past fast fast den i can bak home sleep kao kao....hehe
skul end, wait SOOK CHING cuz she drive me dat day... ^^
journey home keep talking 2 her....no sleep tim....

reached home....wah!!!
faster go bath....eat a bit....sit a while.....sleep ler~~~~ happy~~~
sleep from 6pm...... *tick tock tick tock*
OMG!!! 5am liao!!!! prepare go skul again...haih....

wake up dat time saw my swollen eyes....shock dao me leh~~~
cuz sleep too much liao... =D
go skul, PEAK FONG oso say my eyes swollen ady...hahaha....got witness de~~~ i no tipu~~~
2day feel like so interested in studying....

no yawn in clas or at hall....
what an achievement~~~ =.='''
even BOEY oso praise me...keke
n thnx 4 your SOYA BEAN oh!!! muaks~~~~

n so 2day wil do homework again...
duno wil slep anot neh..... hoho
hav 2 find info 4 my PA colloquium....
my grp gt ME, WEN HUI, YUEN YEE....

v doing TEKNOLOGI HIJAU....
i duno wat lai de....
so dun ask me....haha
find dao liao i tel la...kekeke

den PHYSIC de divide grp ady....
ME, BOEY, LAI YEN, CHIN WEI are grp 2.... ^^
doing THERMODYNAMICS OF GASES.... *_*
duno wats dat about....nt yet learn geh.....
dat chapter is d 2nd last chapter... o.O

CHEM oso divided 2 sum grps ady...
my grp gt 3 ppl....
ME, BOEY, LI CHAO.... XP
wit my 宝贝 (baby) again....hehehe...lucky~~~
v doing transition elements whch are GOLD & SILVER.... bling bling~~~~
do d physical prop, etc etc etc...

haih...so many things 2 do....
bt all not yet start...
mus start liao...
GAMBATEH!!!! yeah!!!!

Triple Nine Day 09.09.09

nice date.... ^^
n was supposed 2 do sumthing special since 2day date so special...hahaha
but leh....wat 2 do???
as a student.....go skul lor.... =(

wah.....its a hectic day man!!
do reports....
CHEM & PHY...
rush rush rush....

rush til skul ends....
finally done...yay~~~~
den after dat is our scout...
gt organise TREASURE HUNT wit Sains Sosial....
so mai play lor....

haha...overall.....
i think my group veli veli ganas.... XP
cuz start from 1st station, v ady scold d station d ppl.... pity them~~
n den rite til 6th station (last liao), v oso stil so ganas...kaka

at d 4th station, whr YIN JIA & WEN HUI jaga de....
v more more ganas....think back d case oso feel so funny.... =P
v were asked 2 sing Jalur Gemilang....
den CHOI YAN more expert ma...
so she represent our group go sing lo....

den so ngam dat time another group finix liao....
den ask Wen Hui sign d paper 4 them as a prove la....
if like dat neh, she cant hear Choi Yan liao de wor....
den Choi Yan hav 2 re-sing again lo....
so v all oso go angry lu....

v keep scold Wen Hui....hehe
pity Wen Hui & Choi Yan....
finix sing ady, Wen Hui ask our group question bout d lyric...
wah...v all get so furious....

dat time is d climax!!
WAI YEN & WEN HUI start yelling liao... walao~~~
v all oso shocked....
all oso get unhappy....
SORRY WEN HUI!!! SORRY TO EVERYONE!!!!

but stil manage 2 shake it off n start answering quest...
our journey went well until d last station...
dats whr d unsatisfied part start...
we were asked 2 potray/shape ourselves into alphabets...

we nid 2 make a word whch is MALAYSIA....
kanasai betul!!!
v consider pass if d station guard say its ok...
den if they dun like us, so v mai do how well oso cant pass???!!!! deng~~~

beginning dat time, she help us find our 1st station....
den arive her station dat time, she like 1 kill us...
its like being an angel for a minute, become a devil in d next minute...

hate her hate her!!!!
hate level increase liao~~~
but suan la...
dun1 kira wit her....

after done dat station, they 1 gv us another clue wor...
we all get blur liao....
cuz altogether gt 6 stations oni...
dat station is our last liao de....

1 gv sumore den v mai do 7 stations lo???!! sot sot de~~~
so they say ok ok...
u all go report 2 teacher la... ^^
i think v r d 1st group to finish...

dat is if v r nt disqualified for certain things such as:
1. being very violent
2. use the lift
3. i knew some of the clues already
4. we got some tips from people
5. ..........................................

paiseh leh...
our group sumore is d largest group...
all gals n oni 1 boy.... hehe
oh well...who cares la???

we all had fun i think....
can release stress in a funny way by letting it out on d station's guard.... >_< playing dat time feel like 1 mad liao...
now think bak feel dat so funny...hahahaha

CHOI YAN did all d answering n running...hahaha
so she veli berjasa 2 d group...THANKS YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

09.09.09

nice date....
good wedding date....hehe
once in a lifetime chance....
oh well....
jz wanna say to all smal smal family & 姐妹 >>>>

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我爱你!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moody But Contented

today......................................................
really nothing special happen......
woke up on time....
den plan do MUET folio b4 go skul...
so my plan oso includes getting late 2 skul...

of coz...sure nid 2 inform sum frens n mates 1st...
so i sms YIN JIA, LAI YEN, & BOEY....
i think all oso surprise to c dat sms...
cuz i msg them dat time stil very very early....hahaha

den i do my folio til 7.30am....
bt nt yet done oso...at least left a few oni... XP
den slow slow prepare go skul....
reach skul 8.30am ++ .... ^^

erm...2day my 宝贝 (bao bei), BOEY made choc muffins 4 me...
actuali dat day msn i was jz joking bcuz she made muffins on holiday n din treat me one....
den she say wil do when skul opens.....
cant believe she really do....paiseh betul~~~
not bad oh~~~ THANKS BABY~~~ ^^

den er....oh ya...
monthly test result came out....
hahaha....
ok oso wor~~~
i din alaskan d base of LS1... *.*

quite happy oso ler....
i gt no.17 out of 24 ppl in clas...
percentage is 38.0% and pointers of 1.18..... hahhaa....
watever dat is...i quite content....

so dat was it about 2day....
jz 1 last thing....
all of a sudden, i feel darn sad & angry..duno y...
no nid 2 make me happy la....my moods are lik roller coaster geh... wee~~~~

Fruity Week

its been a very unhappy week...
nid do folio...
when on9 msn, evy1 oso write, FOLIO-ing...
hahaha....
den mai very bad lor....
cuz evy1 busying while me so relax.... >_<
ok la...
dun talk studies....
wat else hapen dis week neh???
hmmm.....

oh ya....
my mum went 2 Cameron Highlands last week...
den she bought some fruits bak...
haha...
actuali cant consider some lo...
bcuz i've been eating it for 1 whole week liao...
n now stil nt yet finix.... XP

evyday bak from skul oso eat...
but stil gt few....
haha....
n i oni eat dis few types....

Jambu air (水翁)
not sweet at all!!! just big nia.... o.O

Dried strawberry (草莓干)
dis is d BEST!!! yum yum~~~ ^^ love it....



Honeydew (蜜瓜)
dis oso d BEST!!! sweet dao~~~~

Strawberry (草莓)
dis oso not sweet!!! nt wangi oso...haih....wasted~~~

den my mum gt buy oso some sweet potato n corns....
all nice oso....keke
haih....
whole week jz eat fruits....

its good or bad neh???
i long time no eat fruits liao...
so it might b good...
but i eat it whole week!!!
so its dangerous~~~ ngek ngek.....

n den d pics all taken using my spoilt cam...
so d quality is quite bad de....hehe
wil take it go repair.....SOON~~~~

anyway, new day gonna start tmrw....
so b ready ba~~~
hate skul so much!!!!

nearly forgot....
need thnx to TENG 4 helping me wit d Chinese words.... =D

<< secrets within >>

surprise surprise...
you really shocked me..
i never ever thought you would do something like this...
you're such a back-stabber and a betrayer...
you a**hole!!!
hate you to the max...
regretted on telling you so much...
how could you do something like this?
did you forget to bring your brain when you're doing it?
did you even use your brain before you were about to do so?
i doubt you even have brain at all...
i don't know why we can still be friends for so long...
i knew you weren't good...
but i never thought you were that bad...
you're an evil shit!!
although you're not hurting me, you betrayed them...
and that means it's time to put a full stop to our friendship...
i don't want to bother you...
won't give a damn how you feel...
you don't deserve our sympathy...
and you certainly don't deserve our respect at all...
we all know what you did...
and it will be the very last thing you did to harm us...
you spoilt your reputation by your own mistakes...
your image is like a rotten egg in our eyes...
you used to be someone i remember in my memory..
now you are just a nobody in my history...
if you are going to be like this, then we are not the friends you're looking for...
go look for someone that's willing to let you stab at them...
we do not welcome a back-stabber in our group/family...
i think we don't need this betrayer...
anyone agree?

** P/S : I think you know who i'm talking about because it had caused chaos among us. Please do not reveal who it is. Maybe other people still think of that evil person as their friend. I don't want a war in my blog. Thanks. **

Powerless

2day is another skul day...
hate skuling now...
cuz i dun like it...
nt my interest anymore...

so hard 2 even understand wat its talking about...
oni 1 subject can make u go mad ady...
no no..mayb even 1 chapter in 1 subject can make u go crazy!!!
i wonder y sum ppl can really understand wat its talking about...

i think im nt gd enuf...
or mayb my brain cant function like them...
studying now dun make me happy, at all... =(
if ever thr is a course for Photographing, i think i might take it...

n if ever dat course can make my future brighter, i wil gv up F6 rite now....
i ady starting to feel im wasting my time in F6...
i knew i made d wrong decision from d very beginning....
but i stil take it bcuz mum said so...

i noe F6 can make d future looks gd...
but if thrz no interest, how to handle all d stuff???
haih....my future...(wat a joke....no pun intended...)
sure worst than any1 else...

oh well...
juz hope i dun end up being a useless junk...
anyway...stil wish i could turn bak time...hahaha

<< secrets within >>

what are they thinking?
i really feel so weird...
weird in the sense that it's like they know my secret...
they know what i'm up to...
they know all about my secret....
it scares me like hell....
i don't feel safe around them...
i don't know they did it on good intentions or just trying to make fun of me....
am i exposing too much information to the wrong people?
or are they trying to hurt me?
seriously, this isn't funny...
if this secret really comes out, i'm a dead meat...
really will hide in my room for the rest of my life...
everyone has a secret....
even it's a small matter but it still is a secret....
you have to respect people's secret you know?
when they tell you it's a secret and you and only you knows about it, then you have to keep your mouth shut very tightly...
if you spread the secret, then i think it's considered a back stabbing or betrayal...
from my view, i really hate this kind of people...
i'm not sure if i'm the victim now, but i can be sure that i don't feel comfortable telling anything to anyone now...
i think i have to keep all the secrets to myself from now on...
no more sharing...
no more updating on the secrets...
just do it for my own safety...
need to be more self-centred on this kind of things...
so do you too.... becareful~~

** P/S : Just happen to realise what's going on behind me. I don't know the truth, though. **