Wounded & Cracked

muahaha....
im enuf wit getting upset n think too much...
i dun wanna care anymore....
jz be normal n be hapy =P...

i dun deserve to feel guilty so much...
im happy yet angry.... wakakaka
no idea wat dat meant but i wanna live my life..
dun tel me wat i shud do n shan't do....

i luv freedom!!!
dun bound me plz...
i wil hate u.... ><
anyway, yday went to skul as usual... *duh*

n so unluckily, i din wore my camisole...
celaka wan!!! kena tangkap!!
deng~~ im usually a gud student lo....
manatau ter-kantoi dis time... haiz~~

nvm... nak sangat? ambik je la!! bleak!!
den in skul... feel so enjoy... haha
me n Boey wu liao til duno whr to conteng...
so conteng shirt.... ><

Her specialty... drawing LOVE... =.='''

so after skul, join Sook Ching they all go McD Taman Midah....
gt me, her, See Shin, Bei, Li Foon, Fei Mei, Shin Wee & her bf.... ^^
had a great time laughing thr... hahahha
all anger lost for a moment~~~ XD

Ate sundae with curly fries while waiting for Bei, Fei Mei, Shin Wee & her bf.... yum yum~~

well, emo-ness nt all gone yet...
stil gt sum inside me...
den sudenli tot wanna wash car....
so 2day washed ady... xixi

Damn clean leh~~ *bling bling* I'm proud of myself... ^^

i realize i feel better n happier evytime i washed car...
or washed sumthing...
or did some art/craft....
how nice~~~ @@

at least i dun go n put all d anger on sum one....haha
so evybody safe lu~~ keke
many things hapen recently... i dun wan to mention wat it is... its unsolved...
let it flow wit d wind... muakakaka

<< secrets within >>

so damn frustrating...
why does this have to be such a big issue?
i don't like this....
but this is just too much for me...
i don't know what's the best solution..
how can i keep this without scratching it?
understanding is not enough....
somewhere inside, there's still thousands of thorns...
i'm not blind.. i can see through you...
i'm not even deaf... i can hear you...
but i just found out that i can't be loyal to only one...
that's just one of the reasons...
when i have too many, i don't know which to care and which to love...
this suddenly just struck me...
who knows i'm really heart aching when i thought of it?
today i really can't bear it when you told me what i've been thinking these few days...
i know it should be good but i just don't want to tell you...
but all of a sudden, you became the one telling me this...
undeniably, we share the same thoughts..
but i just don't feel good about this...
don't know if you notice i've been emo-ing for a few hours....
tears roll down suddenly when i keep thinking about this bullshit...
i hid my face so that you won't see me cry...
somehow, my heart still ache cause this has yet to be solved...
i don't want to hurt anyone but ended up hurting myself...
i don't want to blame anyone, i can only blame myself...
can i be a little more heartless?
a little more selfish? more cruel?
so now i'm sitting here... in front of my laptop..
holding back my tears... typing out all that's kept inside me...
i really don't give a damn even if you saw this...
i wish to delete this post but i desperately wanted to express myself...
how do i make everyone happy when i don't even have the time to finish my stuffs?
we should be happy to know each other cause we are destined....
without destiny, i barely know your existence..
i've wasted my time and energy on this stupid issue lately..
that's why i need to cover up my anger in front of you...
hope it's enough to not let you know i'm upset about this...
i don't want to think about this...
just let it be!
let me be the bad person and you take all the credits!
let me be guilty and you be innocence!
blame me and not others!
hate me but not them!
i'm so pathetic! fuck!

** P/S : I HATE TO BE THE ONE WITH ALL THESE UNNECESSARY BULLSHIT. I KNEW YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. IT'S VERY OBVIOUS, I KNOW. IT'S ALL TANGLED UP ALREADY. GREAT, NO PUN INTENDED **

<< secrets within >>

it's been a hectic weekend..
which made me miss you even more...
just one message from you could make me happy...
i'm so touched about the things you said...
really did made me cry for a while..
feels so bad to not be at your side...
wish we could meet faster...
the earth could turn faster...
the time would pass easier..
and we'll meet sooner...
i want some physical support other than moral support..
a hug will do...
even a smile will do...
just want some comfort from you, that's all...
i had hold on for some time now..
starting to suffocate...
when can i breathe again?
even if we are not near in sight, we're side by side in the heart...
your sweet advise made my day went easier and smoother...
thanks for everything...

**P/S : No comment. Try not to think or guess too much. **

Local Movie

go watch go watch!!
really funny man...
laugh from begining til end... wakakkaka
n ofc its very Malaysian language n styles... keke

Tiger WooHoo so damn hilarious...
altho when they doing d tiger dance part is not so nice...><

bt its a local product so i think its gud enuf ady...

support LOCAL PRODUCT yo!! ^^

Quick Update

long time no see... haha
its been so long wey~~
so sorry la my dear frens...
i've been busy... =P

dats y im here now to update a bit.. ><
last week was d skul opening...
so i became a skul gal again..hahha
but also did hav a bit outing....

went for AVATAR wit my mum... ^^
so nice la...
d graphic very good....
d story is a bit *ahem* lor....

after dat got watch BODYGUARDS AND ASSASSINS...
walao... damn sienz!!!
mayb i duno how to enjoy it...
seems so boring bt funny at certain scenes... hahahha

so dats wat i've been doing last week...
really ntg much apart from going skul n going home... ^^
dis year gonna make myself study at least more than last year...
n also must make myself do homework or mayb copy...hahaha

anyways....
i wun b posting anything much now...
since i'll comeby here very seldom...
so tata~~

Complete Freedom Ends

mum came back ady.... =)
sudenli feel like gt sum1 at home is safer...
bt oso feel dat when sum1 is at home, cant do anything freely anymore... T.T
duno when can get this freedom again...

bt its gud dat she's bak...
so long dun hav any1 to nag me....hahahhaa
she's bak n dat means i hav ATM machine ady... ^^
anyway, so much things to do now.... =( BYE BYE~~~

Last Day Of Holiday

Adrian ask me out yday...
movie at Cheras ''SOUTH''.... hahahaha
wanna watch AVATAR bt all showtime full ady...
so watch DID YOU HEAR ABOUT THE MORGANS?

gt me, Yen Chin, Adrian, Hon Sim, Wai Yen....
after dat go eat at Pizza Hut...
walao!!! v sit thr for 30mins oso no ppl cum serve us...
celaka betul~~~

service darn bad!!!
v came in 1st bt they pula can go serve d table after us wan....
wth!! den v all really beh tahan...
den go nex shop eat....

service fast n better than Pizza Hut... hmph~~
after dat, go guide Kiri at LM, v al go my hse since they din went b4... ^^
came my hse watch Final Destination 2.... ><
den dinner together near my hse....hahaha

dis movie was nice n funny...
hilarious~~ nt very boring...
obviously is a romance movie... XD
worth a watch if u had watch other movies... ^^

OMG!!!
tmrw skul start again... T.T
dun really feel like studying yet lo...
holiday ends too fast le la~~~

2010 Begins

its been a long long day for me...
yday woke at 1pm den nite went countdown wit Boey they all...
so me, Boey, Yuen Yee reach Times Square at about 7.30pm...
go thr meet wit others at Gasoline....

den v 3 sit a while n go walk walk...
after 20mins, i really cant stand my hungriness....
damn starving~~
go round round find food bt seems like ntg really attracts me...

by d time v wanna settle down...
its either d shop is closing or its about time for us to go Sungai Wang thr...
v gals go thr 1st....
OMG!!! reaching d stage area, completely cant move nor breathe... ><

d ppl keep pushing pushing n squeezing...
lost my balance so easily...
dangerous oso cz many pick pockets in d crowds...
haiz.... super airtight wey~~~ alomost evy part kena sentuh ady T.T...

after a massive effort from d 3 of us...
v finally got thru d scary crowd....
n d adventure doesnt end thr....
thr r many ppl spraying d ''fake snow'' n d one like colourful threads...

ady kena so many....
even if i wanna avoid, its either v succeed or they jz spray directly at u....
dat wan is our 2nd obstacle...
d 3rd one is those foreign man....

damn scary...
thrs one guy wearing a white shirt wit jeans...
standing right behind v 3 gals...
he was kinda talking to his hp....

n bcz he look so suspicious for me...
i keep spying at him cz he stand behind us...
den a chinese guy sudenli came to me n warn me bout d foreign guy behind us...
such a nice guy to remind us... tq ya~~

n so i kept my eyes really focus at d foreign guy...
i notice dat he was clicking n talking to his hp...
n it was a Sony Ericsson....
i saw him pressing n dialling...

bt he seems to talk way too soft...
n d crowd is really mad n loud as thrz a stage ahead us...
so its impossible for d ppl on the other line to hear his soft voice...
n i suspected he's atuali jz acting....

other dan dat...
i think i saw sumthing awful...
when i was spying him, i think i saw sumthing on d front of his pants....
i think it might b d penis...

i couldn't really see it clearly bt i definitely saw sumthing thr...
n by dat time, i got freaked out n ask Boey n Yuen Yee to faster move forward...
in d end, v finally lost sight of him..
wat a relieve~~

den it was time for countdown...
thr's so few fireworks display.... haiz~~
after dat, v all went bak Taman Connaught n yamcha thr...
by d time v finix our yamcha, its almost 3am...

n dat time i was stil starving...
i jz had a teh tarik ais thr...
d whole day i din eat a thing at all... ><
n bcuz itz expected dat our schedule wud b so late, i over9 at Boey hse...

went her hse, bath, prepare for bed...
OMG!!! i cant sleep man!!
eventho im tired, bt my eyes cant seem to shut...
n in d end, i think i started sleeping at 5am after v had a little bed talk...

i knew she was dead tired so i asked her to sleep 1st... ^^
i think i woke at 7am or 8am...
cz i heard her mum woke up....
dats when i started to get insomnia again... T.T

cant sleep at all so i jz lay thr n waited for Boey to wake up...
n den v had breakfast together at about 11am....
i finally can eat after starving for over 24hours... ><
i broke my personal record again... wakakaka

den v cleaned our car......
worked all day on dat...
den helped her a bit on making sushi...
n v jz work like dat til 7pm...

n since i oni had so few hours of rest...
im entirely worn out...
im already a dead corpse...
feels like my whole body wud break into pieces... ><

nw dat im finally home...
i wud rest enuf...
recharge my battery...
regain my consciousness... XD

1st Countdown With Friends

went countdown at Bukit Bintang~~
wit Boey, Yuen Yee, and other friends...
had such a good time...

v became pancake thr..
v were squeezed so tighly that v hardly can breathe n move...
wat a sad case...
bt nvm... at last, we are still alive!!! haha

so after dat, i went over9 at Boey hse..
n so, im using her comp rite now to update my blog... hahaha
had a great time welcoming the year 2010...
lets live thru another year ya!!!