My Apologies, I'm Sorry

i noe i noe....
i sudenli cried.....
n i noe u might be curious.....
i jz tot dat its not dat serius...not dat big case.....

i guess 2day im jz simply too fragile to be broken....
haih..... i noe i hav 2 start from whr....
i went to skul as usual n i reached jz 5mins b4 considered late....
line up as usual...NILAM as usual.....went in clas as its a MUST.... =D

n so...BOEY was late....whch is normal....
den me, LAI YEN, WAI YEN were discusing bout tmrw n oso bout d folio...
den PHYSICS teacher came in....n as usual she din teach oso.... XP
so i was sms-ing wit BOEY.....told her teacher came....so thr she was, sneaking into d clas...

n so here is whr it begins....
oh well....i ady discussed wit LAI YEN bout our Chem & Phy folio....
i tel BOEY dat she no nid do anythng bout it....
bt she insist on printing d info for PHY....

n i say NO....no nid...let me n Yen do it...
she said YES n i said NO....
n goes on n on n on.....
n i fed up jor...mayb i did raised my tone.... >.<

n she gt angry....cant really tel she's seriously mad or jz acting....
den she say, ''i dun1 fren u ady (SERIOUS TONE & ACTION ADDED)'' ....so im really moody then....
she turned her face away....keep chating wit WEN HUI....
n Yen keep chating wit me...

its like v really hate each other dat much....
by den, i was really upset....
really silly...duno y v nid to argue over smal matter....
den i think har think har.....d more i think, d more upset i get....

haiz...obviuosly, tears start to pond in my eyes....
bt i had to push it bak in..... i dun nid to cry over silly stuff.....
i tried n tried n tried....
i tried so damn hard to control d tears..... its repeating for almost 2periods of classes....

bell rang......den sudenli i cant hold it any longer.....
d tears start to run down....
i knew i had to hide....find a hole n hide...or mayb jz rush bak home for my pillow....
for sure i cant do dat =.=''' ....so coincidently FONG came in n find me....

den i jz pack my things n dashed out of d class....
BOEY noe i was upset...cuz i completely ignored her....
dat time FONG ady saw my teary eyes....
she asked y bt i really dun feel like talking....

den i went to wait FONG n JIA outside LS3 class.....
i stood at the hallway staring at d scenery....
thinking so randomly....mostly about d incident jz now....
den tears came rolling down again....i really cant hold it so long....

sudenly BOEY came by...
she patted on me...n i tot it was JIA or mayb FONG....
i turned around n i saw her, den i saw CHOI YAN n SUE LING on d way to DK1....
so i jz ignored her, walked pass her....n i folow Yan n Ling.....n i ditched Fong n Jia....

Yan & Ling oso saw my stpd sad n teary face.....
they gt ask y....bt moody ppl sure dun1 tel u y de la rite???
den they so SMART...they jz continue chat n let me breathe....
went up 7th floor....i jz stood thr staring at d KLCC, KL TOWER, TIMES SQUARE....

d weather n clouds are so nice....
i tried calming myself....i was trying to get bak to my normal mood....
bt den whenever thrz distraction, i wil hav teary eyes again..... ish ish~~ @.@
BOEY gt sms n apologize to me bt i din reply....cuz i dun think its her fault....

den in lecture dat time...she sms me apologize again....
i din reply too as it really wasn't her fault....
den in lecture dat time...Jia keep asking me wat hapen....
i din tel her anything.....jz told her its ntg....

in d lecture period....my mood became better.....
i was happy again....n when bak in clas...
i smiled again~~~ =)
evything is ok liao..... ^^

i din mean to be so rude n selfish n ''HARD HEADED'' n ''CHILDISH''..............
its juz dat......when u say u dun1 fren ady....
d tone n expresion n action are jz too real n hurting....
i dun like to make friendship like a joke....cuz its not funny, AT ALL.......

i treat our friendship wit al my heart n time....
i take it seriously....i really dun1 2 c dis relationship become a chaos....
i dun wish to c us become enemies....
if u think frens r nt meant to be frens, den y bother making one then???

pls dun treat friendship as if its a laughing stock...
it might seem useless n a waste of time to u...
bt its d real deal to me.... u might think im a weirdo n a psychopath....
its jz d way i see things....no offense....

lastly,

SORRY BOEY!!!
SORRY EVERYONE FOR WORRYING!!!!!
THANK YOU JIA!!!!

wish i can c my humiliating face today...
i bet its like so ugly dat no1 wil ever forget.... T.T
haihz.......so ''FISH''~~~
arrrr!!!!! face all gone.... yu dao bao!!!!