2011 Conclusion

This whole year is worthless and not forgetting wasted..
Let's see what i've observed about me in my own definition...

- AIM -
It's like archery or dartboard. Usually the target board has a small circle in the middle and that's where you'll score the highest point. In my board however, is pure colour. No circle no colour rings or whatsoever. Just pure white.

- DECISION -
There are 10 gorgeous diamonds with perfect cut and colour. You have to pick out only one of these to fix on your ring and wear it for the rest of your life. How would you choose if each one is close to perfection?

- SOLUTION -
Everybody has questions but it all comes down to one ultimate question. I always leave it blank because i don't have an answer for them. And they won't stop asking until i give them what they want.

- REMINDER -
A lot of scars and bruises on me, it hurts so much. My ears hurt from all the screaming and yelling and it keeps ringing in my head. My tears unbearable when i look at them. Whenever i'm not alone it's the worst time of the day.

- TIME -
Unstopable even if the world ends. Evertything still goes on no matter what happens. Clock will still be ticking even if the heart stops beating, the fan stops spinning, the water stops running, the fish stops swimming, ...

- SEXUAL ORIENTATION -
A little confused and a little unsure. Is it straight or gay? Or is it both? I want to know which one am i. I never fall for a guy and i never go crazy for a girl. But is it so wrong to feel something for a girl? Are girls supposedly to date guys only? How is it that being a lesbian is a perverted thing to do? Can i choose homosexual over heterosexual? Can i be with whoever i wanted to be with, eventhough it's a she? Or am i allowed to only live a so called healthy lifestyle?

- ME -
(empty)

I'm getting bored to living. Nothing excites me anymore.