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had a really BAD day....

feels like things today are really desperate to break apart....

my beloved car.... nearly every part of it breaks into pieces...

my neck.... result from accident today.... really hurts when additional force act on it...

my beloved friend.... heartache to see our platform shaking...

i can't differentiate wrong and right....

can we just lock up everything and pretend like nothing ever happened?

i know it's impossible...

because none of us are willing to do that...

now i realized how a person you admire can really change you...

it's bullshit if you tell me you've stayed the same...

i know i've changed... and i can see i changed a lot...

under influence of you-know-who....

yeah sorry for bad planning.....

sorry for hurting you for whatever reason that suit the blank space...

sorry if i had volumed up my voice when i was trying to speak through the phone while i was in a middle of an accident...

sorry to cause you hit my car as i suddenly braked...

sorry if i act like a wood when you're together..

sorry to kill the mood...

sorry i had you worried about me...

sorry you have friends like us...

sorry i was always glue-ing you-know-who...

sorry if i did not tell you anything...

sorry if i missed the details...

sorry for the stupid gift...

sorry to let your parents scolded you...

sorry for not being concerned enough..

sorry my activities revolve along with you-know-who...

sorry to cause you so damn many troubles..

sorry i'm not the worm in your stomach...

sorry to see everyone upset..

sorry you've lost so many in terms of money, time and blood...

sorry you're angry....

sorry i don't want to see this friendship breaks...

sorry to be so apologetic...

sorry if i cared too much...

sorry if you think this is completely about you...

i hate letting go...

for me, it means that it will never be the same again...

it will never come back again...

today is my bad day...

so do you...

people always say life got its ups and downs....

this is the down part of our life....

and people also says tomorrow will be a brand new day...

that is when things start to move up....

that is when a solution is found...

whether it's a bane or a boon, you'll find out eventually...

i hope our friendship stay strong...

and i hope the next time, if i'm so lucky, involve in a car accident please don't break my neck..

the end is just around the corner...

maybe that's why i kept dreaming about you...

you're the first to be so close to me..

you're the first to get me into troubles...

you're the first when i needed something...

you're certainly the first in my list...

** P/S : Don't get my content wrong. It's continuous but it doesn't mean it's relevant. **