why does this have to be such a big issue?
i don't like this....
but this is just too much for me...
i don't know what's the best solution..
how can i keep this without scratching it?
understanding is not enough....
somewhere inside, there's still thousands of thorns...
i'm not blind.. i can see through you...
i'm not even deaf... i can hear you...
but i just found out that i can't be loyal to only one...
that's just one of the reasons...
when i have too many, i don't know which to care and which to love...
this suddenly just struck me...
who knows i'm really heart aching when i thought of it?
today i really can't bear it when you told me what i've been thinking these few days...
i know it should be good but i just don't want to tell you...
but all of a sudden, you became the one telling me this...
undeniably, we share the same thoughts..
but i just don't feel good about this...
don't know if you notice i've been emo-ing for a few hours....
tears roll down suddenly when i keep thinking about this bullshit...
i hid my face so that you won't see me cry...
somehow, my heart still ache cause this has yet to be solved...
i don't want to hurt anyone but ended up hurting myself...
i don't want to blame anyone, i can only blame myself...
can i be a little more heartless?
a little more selfish? more cruel?
so now i'm sitting here... in front of my laptop..
holding back my tears... typing out all that's kept inside me...
i really don't give a damn even if you saw this...
i wish to delete this post but i desperately wanted to express myself...
how do i make everyone happy when i don't even have the time to finish my stuffs?
we should be happy to know each other cause we are destined....
without destiny, i barely know your existence..
i've wasted my time and energy on this stupid issue lately..
that's why i need to cover up my anger in front of you...
hope it's enough to not let you know i'm upset about this...
i don't want to think about this...
just let it be!
let me be the bad person and you take all the credits!
let me be guilty and you be innocence!
blame me and not others!
hate me but not them!
i'm so pathetic! fuck!
** P/S : I HATE TO BE THE ONE WITH ALL THESE UNNECESSARY BULLSHIT. I KNEW YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. IT'S VERY OBVIOUS, I KNOW. IT'S ALL TANGLED UP ALREADY. GREAT, NO PUN INTENDED **
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